[Poetry] what i have to offer is for You

"If I am not for myself who is for me? And when I am for my own self, what am I? And if not now, when? - Hillel"
"אם אין אני לי מי לי ? וכשאני לעצמי מה אני ? ואם לא עכשיו אימתי? -הלל"
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what i have to offer is for You

indeed it is for Everyone

except me

for that is me: what i offer You

i am lost in the sea of You

the very me shrivels

as i pour for You

yet another cup of water

as thirst nags at my throat…

but i can endure

i must as i have always

for to fail You is to fail me

don’t You see

so i do not fail for You

i offer myself to You

in so doing

i have nothing left of me

to give to You for i am nothing no more

but You expect more

because that is me: what i offer You

when my water dries up try as i might to sustain

for all who are thirsty and whose glasses are empty

in the end

to care is to hurt

to appease is to lose

to comfort is to betray

to reach out is to offend

for i am a finite fountain  who was never supposed to recognize such limits

instead to be ready to just give and give and give and give and GIVE

until i have no more and never truly knowing myself

except what i offer You - for that is me.  

i have poured myself into a last

offering of water … drink up,

my friend, for i give You me

and simply have no more

of myself to offer –

i am myself no

more