Thursday, February 26, 2015

[Poetry] what i have to offer is for You

"If I am not for myself who is for me? And when I am for my own self, what am I? And if not now, when? - Hillel"
"אם אין אני לי מי לי ? וכשאני לעצמי מה אני ? ואם לא עכשיו אימתי? -הלל"

what i have to offer is for You
indeed it is for Everyone
except me
for that is me: what i offer You

i am lost in the sea of You
the very me shrivels
as i pour for You
yet another cup of water
as thirst nags at my throat…
but i can endure
i must as i have always
for to fail You is to fail me
don’t You see
so i do not fail for You
i offer myself to You
in so doing
i have nothing left of me
to give to You for i am nothing no more
but You expect more
because that is me: what i offer You
when my water dries up try as i might to sustain
for all who are thirsty and whose glasses are empty
in the end
to care is to hurt
to appease is to lose
to comfort is to betray
to reach out is to offend

for i am a finite fountain  who was never supposed to recognize such limits
instead to be ready to just give and give and give and give and GIVE
until i have no more and never truly knowing myself
except what i offer You - for that is me.  
i have poured myself into a last
offering of water … drink up,
my friend, for i give You me
and simply have no more
of myself to offer –
i am myself no